Zac Smith: "If God Chooses Not to Heal Me, God is still God and God is Still Good"


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Update: Zac died recently and now stands with Jesus in glory. He didn’t waste his life, and he didn’t waste his cancer. Please keep his family in your prayers.

The powerful testimony of Zac Smith of Newspring Church:

In May of 2009, I was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer; immediately I had surgery to remove a foot and a half of my large intestine and a lemon size tumor… The cancer had spread to my spleen and my liver. Chemotherapy was on the horizon.

I found myself very confused – why did I have cancer? Had I something wrong to cause it? Was this the result of sinful living in my past?

But quickly the confusion turned to hope… I didn’t understand why I had cancer, but I knew that God was in charge.

For three months I underwent a horrible chemo regimen. Afterwards, I had a scan done and the results were great. There was no cancer found in my body. We celebrated God’s healing and God’s failing.. but another scan a month later showed that the cancer reappeared a month later…

The cancer is now growing and getting worse. Unfortunately the chemo drugs are no longer working… medically speaking there is nothing left for me, and medically speaking, I will probably not live to 2011.

The Bible says in Matthew 7:11 that God gives good things to those who ask. God cannot give me a bad gift. And it is through that lense I can say that cancer that has ever happened to me.

I am a better husband and a better dad. A better boss and a better employee. A better friend and a better follower of Jesus. And through cancer, God has shown me some amazing things about himself. Those are indeed good gifts…

I am praying for God to heal me. That is my desire. I want to walk my daughter down the aisle. I want to watch my sons become men. I want to grow old with [my wife]. And I want to live my life with my friends at work. But I may not be able to work much longer.

And I may have just celebrated my last Christmas with my family.

This I do know, if God chooses to heal me, then God is God and God is good. If God chooses to not heal me and allows me to die, then God is still God and God is still good.

To God be the glory.

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  • Rose-Anne

    Thank you for sharing. This reflects what my Pastor quotes about if God is not God of All he is not God at all. Just because we can’t see the big picture doesn’t mean there was an error. May God bless you!!

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  • Michelle

    God led me to this website today. My young son has a large bone tumor. While I would love to see him miraculously healed, if God chooses not to heal him, He is still to be praised. His plan is greater than what we can see.  I am so thankful that Zac chose to share his testimony. It spoke directly to my heart.